realisation - a vicious circle

REALISATON dies once again..
drowning in the ecstacy of pain.
immaculate uncertainty,
calling the winds of pity!!

Crystal drops of intoxicating illusion,
is what u call your own..
towering waves of confusion
driven by the conspiracy of the unknown!!

Your wings still refuse to fly.
your mind never cease to die.
those promises will always ..
grow under the shadow of the big lie.
leaving you forever high and dry!!

Defeated.
lost.
cheated..
by your trust.
u’ve made your face all teary.
u’ve befriended misery!!

and just when you see ..
that the thin ice has started to crack
and just when u wonder ..
if this is the final cut.
And just when u thought ..
u have finally reached the end.
REALISATION comes back
to save you..once again................

PERFECT PLACE!!

dead.. is the hour,
been this way forever..
hope struggles,
killing the pulse.

the zephyr blows your shadow apart,
its just playing its part.

strange ways!
frozen blaze!
hollow days!
infinite spaces.
its the PERFECT PLACE!!

today the soul is restless,
wearing its happiest face.
the mind refuses to rebel,
it wants to hear the burst of the bubble.
completely oblivious to its rising fall.

jealous thoughts..
tied with deceptive knots.
colorless laughters..
making u feel impure.
carrying..only the pride of a fallen 'ACE'
carrying..only the fading memories
of..wasted days.
of..sordid images..
of.. misunderstood wishes.
of..mocking faces.

carrying only a pocket full of happiness
it still is the PERFECT PLACE

absurd circus...act 1 scene 5!!!

words are spoken..
speeches are made.
while u envy the mighty sun..
wishing it was cold dead.
mysteriously u forget what they just said!!
everything changes everyday..
as u watch the world turn gay..
and just when u thought...
nothing could go wrong!!
monotony sings a tuneless song..
so now everyone wants to know the cause..
the cause....for the birth of the
ABSURD CIRCUS!

the actors look tired..
the sky looks wired!!
the birds make faces..
the cards bury their 'aces'
YESTERDAY...it was strange..
TODAY...its normal
YESTERDAY..we were dying to be friends..
TODAY.. we triumph at each others fall..
TOMORROW..waits for us..
to discover the irony of the
ABSURD CIRCUS!!

forever gone are the dead.
forever living will be HATE..
some amused..
beyond 'reality'
some suffer
attracted by the warmth of 'PITY'
nobody remembers forgotten days..
nobody remembers..
when time lost its pace..
cause everyone's lost
in the depth ..of the
ABRURD CIRCUS!!!

how long!!!

I ask...how long..how long...

how long will you follow your glory???
how long will you face this unknown fury??
how long can u be sorry??
how long will you feed the hungry tide?
how long will you let your mood be your silent guide??
how long will darkness sleep by your side?
how long will you hold on to your pride??
how long will this mystery fight with your sanity?
how long will you burn in the flames of unforgiving pity??
how long will this monotony rule??
how long can you play the fool??
how long will you hide your hate??
how long will you carry the burden of regret??
how long will you live for your fate??
how long will the moon make u feel happy??
how long will youir eyes stop u from seeing the things u wanna see??
how long will you blame your past??
how long is this gonna last??

i ask again..
how long???????

IF....

IF i was a king...
i would be shy!!
IF i was a bird...
i would still be learning to fly!!
IF i was to be born again..
i would still be the same
IF i was someone else..
i would have been a better person!!
IF i was the moon..
i would be jealous of the sun,
IF i had met u before..
u would still be amused,
IF i had never met you ..
i surely would have changed!!
IF i was the human mind..
i would forever fight with my brain..
IF i was a wise man ..
i would turn insane!!
IF i was my voice..
i would forever keep shut,
IF i was your voice..
i would be forever sought!!
IF i was the time,
i would be late..
IF i was a fish,
i would swim towards my bait..
IF i was this,
i would love to be that..
IF i was the peacock..
i would love to be a fat cat!!

i thank god.. i thank me..
that I am I
sometimes flying high!!
mostly living a lie!!
ALWAYS a simple guy!!!!

ACT 1 SCENE 4

no oneknows the reason..
no one knows the answers!!
not even the mighty sun..
or the foolish prodigal son..
the mystery hangs in the air
inviting fear!!
amidst all this
the show goes on ..
as no one wants to miss the bus..
for the ABSURD CIRCUS!!

the stage gets all the more bigger..
the silence echoes all the more louder!!
the past digs in all the more deeper..
the present fades away all the more quicker!!
as the lover turns looser
leaving hate as his only SAVIOUR!!
the crab looses grip..
as u watch the tide-ridden waves leap..
the good old moon will vanish soon,
but none will remember
the beauty of its craters!!
it is for sure..
that no one can cure the madness..
..no one can slow the pace..
..no one can remember ugly faces..
..no one can fill the void of SENSE..
threatening their very existence..

AM I JUST STATING THE OBVIOUS????
or am i just killing time..
IN THE ABSURD CIRCUS!!!!!!

PRIDE!!

...PRIDE....
its a name.
its a voice!!
bereft of choices..
fighting against shame!

grope for it,
u wont find.
get stung by it,
u wont mind.
try to kill it,
and you are bound to stumble.
try to hide it.
but u still wont be able to burst the BUBBLE!!

so let it shine..
let it fly.
DONT let it die.
cause sooner or later its gonna,
bid GOODBYE!!!

some say its fake..
some say its stupid.
other say iam just trying to make,
the most out of my GREED
they might be wrong..
they might be right!!
but iam still gonna sing my song.
iam still gonna be on the the OTHER SIDE!!

dont blame me..
BLAME MY PRIDE!!!!!